Poem by David N Donihue
The fakest one in the room
The spinster who loves to see
Everyone come unglued
You Chose patterns over people
Played victim when picking fights
You hate honest hearts
Because some sicko took your pride
You had to lose all feeling
To get back at “life”
So everyone became your tool
To get you through the times
Everyone belittled
Everyone shamed
Because your too cowardly
To face turned you insane
Some evil monster molested you
Took your control away
You heart fled your body
at the moment of the attack
Created an alternate reality,
a grandiose version desperate to get your self-respect back
So ashamed of childhood violated
your life became owned by senseless hatred
Smear campaigns against those who trigger your envy
due to Idiotic shame over not being everything
Your anger is born from a sense of infidelity
And while your lies and manipulations
make you feel superpowers
Your petty little moves are nothing more
than a cowardly backstabber
Silly rabbit;
Antiheroes no longer matter
Now that we know mental illness
is presiding factor
Whenever you hurt someone who you envy
It means shame owns you like a bitch
Whenever you fake your name to troll
You’re saying you don’t exist
No one deserves to be trapped
in that fucking head trip
Every time you stalk someone
your molester is still controlling you
Whenever you lie or smear your friends
post-trauma has won and made you untrue
Dear narcissist
face the pain
It’s easier to live in hollowed shame
You wouldn’t have to lie
You wouldn’t have to betray
No one would suffer
Over that monster who molested you
Dozens of years ago for fucks sake
Drop the cruelty, drop the games
It’s the only way to process healing
From this level of pain
I’m sorry you’ve been hurting for so long
Yet today you walk from all that is wrong
12 Deep Breaths cure all desire to be cruel
A forgiveness in your heart for those who hurt you
And while you’re at it, please forgive yourself too
Forgive yourself for the lies, cheating andf misremembering
The trolling, Stalking, Abuse, Gas Lighting
Regret won’t lead you to anything
TODAY
Is the day where you choose to change everything
In your mind you walk into that room
The place where you were hurt
The place where you were abused
You will see your attacker
You will see the childhood you
And you will pick up that child
And carry the child you to safety
Away from all that is cruel
Imagine in your head
You carrying you to safety
And now you never have to control others again
Never have to sting
You won’t need the fix
You don’t have to compare yourself with others
The you within you is now safe
You now know you fucking exist
Stay soft and true and nothing changes it
Now just get help and go enjoy what you live